Another Year With You

Corinne Bailey Rae – Just Like a Star

Alicia Keys – No One

* Making it through these few years with you is a tough journey. Through all the fights and tears, break-ups and made-ups, we managed to stay together. That says a lot about our relationship. Hang on, baby, let’s hope that the best is yet to come.  Let’s hope for a better tomorrow filled with more sunshine and laughter. Happy birthday, my love! *

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River Flows In You

Love SwansRiver Flows In You – Yiruma, piano; Ruvin, vocal

River Flows In You

Neoreul wihan gili hana ittdamyeon,
geugeon jigeum baro neo ane isseo,
geureohkedo gyeondyeonaelsu ittdamyeon,
geugose neoeui modeun geol mat gyeo bwa,

If there is a road made just for you
That road is right there in your heart
If you can, endure it through
Then put all of your soul into trusting it

Holding you,holding you,it’s in you, river flows in you,
cheoncheonhi deo cheoncheonhi nae mamsoge gangeun heuleugo,
Holding you,holding you,it’s in you, river flows in you,
gidarim geu gidarim ggeuteneun naega isseulgga,

Holding you, holding you, it´s in you, river flows in you
Slowly more slowly
There is a river flowing inside me
Holding you, holding you, it´s in you, river flows in you
Waiting the waiting
Will I be there then?

neol hyanghan nae mameul deo shimgo shipeo,
eonjena naega neol neuggilsu ittge,
geureohkedo gyeondyeonaelsu ittdamyeon,
geugose neoeui modeun geol mat gyeo bwa,

I want to throw my heart to you
So that I can always feel you
If you can, hold onto it just a bit longer
Then try to put all your heart into it

Holding you,holding you,it’s in you, river flows in you,
cheoncheonhi deo cheoncheonhi nae mamsoge gangeun heuleugo,
Holding you,holding you,it’s in you, river flows in you,
gidarim geu gidarim ggeuteneun naega isseulgga

Holding you, holding you, it´s in you, river flows in you
Slowly more slowly
There is a river flowing inside me
Holding you, holding you, it´s in you, river flows in you

“I almost wish we were butterflies and liv’d but three summer days – three such days with you I could fill with more delight than fifty common years could ever contain.”
― John Keats, Bright Star: Love Letters and Poems of John Keats to Fanny Brawne

*Whenever you are by my side, time and space don’t matter any more. There is no pain of yesterday or today nor fear for tomorrow. There is just now – the moment. You are the magician that could cast magic in my life. You – you are the river that keeps flowing inside my heart… Always be there for me, baby… don’t ever stray far…. I would be completely lost without you near…. Happy Valentine’s Day, my love!*

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Black

I see black

Paint It Black – Rolling Stones

Paint It Black – Halloween

Paint It Black – Destrophy

Paint It Black – U2

Paint It Black – Vanessa Carlton

Paint It Black – Inkubus Sukkubus

Paint It Black – Versa Emerge

Paint It Black – Tracy Lawrence

Paint It Black – Marc Almond and The Royal Philharmonic Orchestra

Paint It Black – Angèle Dubeau & La Pietà

Paint It Black – London Symphony Orchestra, Classic Rock Series

Paint It Black – London Symphony Orchestra, Symphonic Music of the Rolling Stones

*My life has come to a standstill – where there was chaos, now there is only a stillness of black. I have finally comes to terms with fate. There is no escape.

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door, I must have it painted black

Maybe then I’ll fade away and not have to face the facts
It’s not easy facin’ up when your whole world is black….

Black. My whole world is black.*

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My Angel

Always & Forever

There You’ll Be – Faith Hill

In my dreams
I’ll always see you soar above the sky
In my heart
There will always be a place for you
For all my life
I’ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you’ll be
And everywhere I am
There you’ll be….

*I don’t know how to share my pains and fears with you, my baby. My life is a curse that you should have no part in. I don’t have the strength to fight it any more. I miss you already, my love. It is so hard to let you go, and yet I know I must.*

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My Baby You

Love is you

My Heart Will Go On – Celine Dion

 My Baby You – Marc Anthony

As I look into your eyes
I see all the reasons why
My life’s worth a thousand skies
You’re the simplest love I’ve known
And the purest one I’ll own
Know you’ll never be alone

My baby you
Are the reason I could fly
And cause of you
I don’t have to wonder why
Baby You
There’s no more just getting by
You’re the reason I feel so alive
Though these words I sing are true
They still fail to capture you
As mere words can only do
How do I explain that smile
And how it turns my world around
Keeping my feet on the ground

I will sooth you if you fall
I’ll be right there if you call
You’re my greatest love of all

My baby you
Are the reason I could fly
And cause of you
I don’t have to wonder why
Baby You
There’s no more just getting by
You’re the reason I feel so alive
Though these words I sing are true
They still fail to capture you
As mere words can only do
How do I explain that smile
And how it turns my world around
Keeping my feet on the ground

And… I feel so alive

Happy birthday, my sweet baby!

Love… always… and forever….

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A Love Before Time

Couple

A Love Before Time – Coco Lee

If the sky opened up for me,
And the mountain disappeared,
If the seas ran dry, turned to dust
And the sun refused to rise
I would still find my way,
By the light I see in your eyes
The world I know fades away
But you stay

As the earth reclaims it due
And the cycle starts anew
We’ll stay, always
In the love that we have
Shared before time

If the years take away
Every memory that I have
I would still know the way
That would lead me back to your side
The north star may die
But the light that I see in your eyes
Will burn there always

Lit by the love we have
Shared before time

When the forest turns to jade
And the stories that we’ve made
Dissolve away
One shining light will still remain

When we she’d our earthly skin
And when our real life begins
There’ll be no shame
Just the love that we have made before time

When You Believe – Mariah Carey ft. Whitney Houston

* When you believe…. *

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Love Hurts

Heart Pain

Love Hurts – Cher

*Why is it so damn painful loving you? It hurt when you were there and it hurts more when you are not. You don’t know what love is. Every frigging day you tried to rip open wounds in me that have healed up and forgotten. Every frigging day you tried to convince me that I was still in love with someone else. Every frigging day you tried to make the love between us a battlefield. I hate you! Just leave me alone to rot on my own or come kill me fast and end it all!*

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Ain’t No Sunshine

Rain and Tears

Ain’t No Sunshine – Eva Cassidy

And The Sun Will Shine – José Feliciano

*Ain’t no sunshine when he’s gone….

He always said that all the other guys in my life are more important to me than him. Why is that I never felt such loss and pain when they were gone?*

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Traces of Love

Love of a dark angel

I Will Always Love You – Whitney Houston

All In Love Is Fair – Marc Antony

*There is not a day that I don’t think about him and yearn for him in my heart. Every time I sit in front of my computer, I have to try so hard to suppress the greatest urge to email him or to message him. In my dreams I’m still calling him Baby… Can’t help recollecting all the happier times we shared – the laughter and the tender moments…. Can’t help wondering if he is feeling fine and doing well; and if he has forsaken his love for me and hates me now. Yet as much as I still have all my feelings for him, I know that I should stay far away from him. There is a difference between us that is irreconcilable and as long as we stay together, we would only end up tearing each other into pieces.

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I’ll go, but I know
I’ll think of you every step of the way.And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
You, my darling you…Bittersweet memories
That is all I’m taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don’t cry.
We both know I’m not what you need.And I will always love you.
I will always love you.I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you’ve dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.And I will always love you.
I will always love you…
I… I will always love you.

You, darling, I love you.
I’ll always, always love you.

You will always be in my heart, my dark angel, for always, forever….*

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Shadowplay

Above Eternal Peace - Isaac Ii'ich Levitan

Above Eternal Peace – Isaac Ii’ich Levitan

Sound of Silence – Emiliana Torrini

Shadowplay, Cirque du Soleil

*It seems only befitting that I should have a dark shade following me at this point in my life – that I should have an instant shadowplay surrounding my vision, blurring my sight. I might just get use to it if it doesn’t go away; yes, I will get use to it, much like I’m beginning to get use to the sound of silence. What good are words if they don’t comprehend… What good is talking if everything fails to be communicated… You’re right, Jerry, I shouldn’t cling onto everything in my life if they are detrimental no matter how much they mean to me. Sometimes I have to learn to let go.

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L’automne de ma vie…

Ne Me Quitte Pas – Mireille Mathieu

*C’est inutile. N’aime personne. Faire confiance à personne…. Je renonce. Tout finira bientôt… Ma vie se terminera bientôt aussi…. Je suis prêt à aller. Laissez-moi partir en paix….*

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A Lemon For A heart

Paint It Black – Inkubus Sukkubus

* The pain happens more and more frequently these days and its duration is lasting longer and longer. The pills no longer offer much relief. I can feel my time drawing near and although I have no regrets in life, the idea of dying in such profound agony still scares me. If this condition persists, pretty soon I shall lose the liberty of living by myself and the idea repels me. If I don’t have the luxury to will the pain to go away, then at least I deserve the right to suffer alone in dignity. I know I’m going on a suicidal run as I’m falling deeper and deeper into him. My heart feels like a lemon being squeezed out to its very last drop of juice, and then wrung dry like a mop. It is like taking my wretched heart on a-thrill-a-second roller-coaster ride – up and down, high and low, a spin to the left one moment and a twirl to the right the next.You have to stop fooling yourself, you big bubblehead; how long do you think it would be before it would finally collapse on you… You will never live to see that day when this love would blossom. I guess the only comfort is in knowing that I’ll die young and stay pretty. It was meant to be funny but I am not even laughing myself.

You ever see tears turn black? They do – because they fell out of eyes that could only see the world as black – “black as night.” *

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Wilting, Withering, Withered…

Sad Music Improvisation – Vadim Kiselev

*The tears seems to have a will of its own
Rolling down the face; falling into a storm
Life is slowly draining away with every drop of tears
Fading like a flower – wilting, withering, withered
All that is left is the empty feeling of totally spent
And the pain sinks in to invade this wretched exhaustion
And the pain declares its victory yet once again

Lucifer smirks to himself right around the corner
Mocking this sadness and depression and helpless pain
Always this helpless and hopeless pain
The devil never honored his bargain
Even if you cry him a river, he’d still repay you with an ocean of pain
I can’t give; I can’t give any more
I’m reduced to nothing but a void
Nothing – but a void*

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Send In The Clowns

Pierrot by Pablo Picasso 1918

Send in the ClownsA Little Night Music: music and lyrics by Stephen Sondheim

Isn’t it rich?
Are we a pair?
Me here at last on the ground,
You in mid-air..
Send in the clowns?

Isn’t it bliss?
Don’t you approve?
One who keeps tearing around,
One who can’t move…
Where are the clowns?
Send in the clowns.

Just when I’d stopped opening doors,
Finally knowing the one that I wanted was yours.
Making my entrance again with my usual flair
Sure of my lines…
No one is there.

Don’t you love farce?
My fault, I fear.
I thought that you’d want what I want…
Sorry, my dear!
But where are the clowns
Quick, send in the clowns
Don’t bother, they’re here.

Isn’t it rich?
Isn’t it queer?
Losing my timing this late in my career.
But where are the clowns?
There ought to be clowns…
Well, maybe next year.

*A sad story. Another sad story with too many tears in it. I don’t like tears. I never liked tears. I can recall better days with easy giggles and laughter. I don’t know if they were happier days, but my heart was a lot more stable and the pains don’t come as often. Send in the clowns, indeed. I need a jester to chase the blues away….*

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All Of You

 

All of You – Diana Ross and Julio Iglesias

I’m Alive – Celine Dion

…All of you, your body and soul
Everything you want this love to be
I want all of you, all that you can give
And in return for all you’re giving let me give you all of me

All of you, your body and soul
Every kind of love you can express
All the secret dreams you’ve never told
I want everything, everything, everything

All of you as long as you live, as long as you live
Everything you want this love to be
I want all of you, all that you can give
In return, in return, I wanna give you

*You are all mine, my sweet love,
As I am all yours – for always, forever….*

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On The Wings Of Love

On the Wings of Love – Jeffrey Osborne

Almost a Whisper – Yanni

Just smile for me and let the day begin
You are the sunshine that lights my heart within
And I’m sure that you’re an angel in disguise
Come take my hand and together we will rise

On the wings of love, up and above the clouds
The only way to fly is on the wings of love
On the wings of love, only the two of us
Together flying high, flying high upon the wings of love

You look at me and I begin to melt
Just like the snow when a ray of sun is felt
And I’m crazy ’bout ya, baby, can’t you see
I’d be delighted if you would come with me….

Yes, you belong to me and I’m yours exclusively
Right now we live and breathe each other
Inseparable it seems, we’re flowing like a stream
Running free flowing on the wings of love

On the wings of love, up and above the clouds
The only way to fly is on the wings of love
On the wings of love, only the two of us
Together flying high, together flying high
Upon the wings of love, of love

*If I could be anything in this world,
I would choose to be the smile upon your face -
The smile that is conceived out of your joy,
Born on your lips,
Lives in your heart
And stubbornly refuses to fade away;
The smile that would cheer you up all day
And keep you happy the rest of your life.

Me – the reason for all your smiles, my love….*

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A Rose Garden Of Love


Love Doesn’t Ask Why – Celine Dion

Love doesn’t ask why
It speaks from the heart
And never explains
Don’t you know that
Love doesn’t think twice
It can come all at once
Or whisper from a distance

Don’t ask me if this feeling’s right or wrong
It doesn’t have to make much sense
It just has to be this strong
‘Cause when you’re in my arms I understand
We don’t have a voice
When our hearts make the choices
There’s no plan
It’s not in our hands…

Now I can feel what you’re afraid to say
If you give your soul to me
Will you give too much away
But we can’t let this moment pass us by
Can’t question this chance
Or expect any answers
We can try
Baby we can try…

So let’s take what we found
And wrap it around us

Love doesn’t ask you why
It speaks from the heart
Don’t you know, don’t you know that love
Baby, Love doesn’t ask you why
Speaks from the heart
And never explains
Don’t you know that love, love, love
Doesn’t think twice
Comes all at once
Whispers from a distance
Love doesn’t ask you why

*Don’t ask me complicated questions. I love you – that’s all I know. That’s all I need to know.*

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There is no angel on Earth

*The phoenix built herself a nest of love and let it ignite. Both bird and nest burnt fiercely in the heat of passion. When the flame subsided, all was reduced to ashes; but the phoenix never rises again. She has exhausted all her chances for rebirth.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. Amen.*

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Paint It Black

Paint It Black – Vanessa Carlton

Glimpse Into Grimness

Engulfing Darkness

Black, black, even the roses are black

Another Brick In The Wall

Comfortably Numb – Pink Floyd

Black

The Whole World Is Black

Fallen

Lamentation – Delerium

Descension

I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and it has been painted black
Maybe then I’ll fade away and not have to face the facts
It’s not easy facing up when your whole world is black…

I wanna see it painted black, painted black
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun, blotted out from the sky
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black


*Black – a bleakness of black*

*How could you understand my world when there is no darkness looming over yours? How would you be able to feel the incessant pain when you have never experienced it or seen me suffering from it? You can’t, you won’t. Don’t even try. I’m gonna build me a black cocoon and nestle in there – far, far away from the madding crowd…goodbye world!*

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Broken

Fragile – Chris Botti, Sting, Yo-yo Ma & Dominic Miller

*If you listen hard,
You can hear the sound of pain -
It is an unrelenting syncopation
Disrupting all your inner rhythm and harmony.
Or maybe it’s just me -
I can almost hear it tapping on my heart -
An irregular displacement of silent torture.

If you listen hard,
You can hear hope fading inside you -
In perfect sync to the rhythm of pain.
No, it’s not my imagination -
It is the sound of falling evening dew,
Drop by drop
Echoing the elusive butterfly’s flapping wings -
Slowly, purposefully
Composing its own Sérénade Mélancolique.*

Lucifer – Alan Parsons Project

*The devil is pounding depression into my head, ounce by ounce….I can feel my cup runneth over….
To Heaven – or Hell – let it be soon…let it be now….*

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On Angel Wings

I Reach For you – Marc Anthony

My Baby You – Marc Anthony

My baby you – are the reason I could fly

And ’cause of you – I don’t have to wonder why

Baby, you -

There’s no more just getting by

You’re the reason I feel so alive

* You, Sweetheart…you are the reason for my smiles….*

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Questions


Whataya Want From Me – Adam Lambert

Do You Know Where You’re Going To – Mariah Carey

The Question

I dreamed that, as I wandered by the way,
Bare Winter suddenly was changed to Spring,
And gentle odours led my steps astray,
Mixed with a sound of waters murmuring
Along a shelving bank of turf, which lay
Under a copse, and hardly dared to fling
Its green arms round the bosom of the stream,
But kissed it and then fled, as thou mightest in dream.

There grew pied wind-flowers and violets,
Daisies, those pearled Arcturi of the earth,
The constellated flower that never sets;
Faint oxlips; tender bluebells, at whose birth
The sod scarce heaved; and that tall flower that wets
Like a child, half in tenderness and mirth
Its mother’s face with Heaven’s collected tears,
When the low wind, its playmate’s voice, it hears.

And in the warm hedge grew lush eglantine,
Green cowbind and the moonlight-coloured may,
And cherry-blossoms, and white cups, whose wine
Was the bright dew, yet drained not by the day;
And wild roses, and ivy serpentine,
With its dark buds and leaves, wandering astray;
And flowers azure, black, and streaked with gold,
Fairer than any wakened eyes behold.

And nearer to the river’s trembling edge
There grew broad flag-flowers, purple pranked with white,
And starry river buds among the sedge,
And floating water-lilies, broad and bright,
Which lit the oak that overhung the hedge
With moonlight beams of their own watery light;
And bulrushes, and reeds of such deep green
As soothed the dazzled eye with sober sheen.

Methought that of these visionary flowers
I made a nosegay, bound in such a way
That the same hues, which in their natural bowers
Were mingled or opposed, the like array
Kept these imprisoned children of the Hours
Within my hand, and then, elate and gay,
I hastened to the spot whence I had come,
That I might there present it! Oh! to whom?

~ Percy Bysshe Shelley ~

*If only I could find answers to your questions… if only I could answer my own questions… I can’t, therefore, I don’t.*

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On Angel Wings

Good Morning Heartache – Diana Ross

Send Me An Angel – Scorpions

An Angel – Declan Galbraith

Angel Wings

Angel wings glistening
Streaming beams of celestial light
Shrouding and covering
Till the love seeps through

Bathe in the light
Be aware of this love
It embraces and warms the soul

Removing doubts and fears
Replacing the anguish
Instilling peace

You can call upon these angel wings
When doubts and fears increase
They’ll take away what you do not need
Leaving true meaning of the life you are meant to lead

~ Amanda J Evans ~

*Sometimes…there are pains that hurt so much even an angel can’t erase….*

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